My Little Corner of the World

We're Going to Be Friends

2011-12-08T17:34:00.001-07:00

This week, I made a new friend.

For the time being he is unnamed. But still very much loved.

This week, I got my iMac. I have been wanting a new computer for a while (my dear MacBook, Edgar has seen better days) and decided it would be more practical to go with a desktop than buying another laptop. So, I got the 27" iMac. It is seriously a thing of beauty -- very large beauty!

I love it. I just need to christen it with the perfect name now...

The best logo around.

Pinterest on my iMac is amazing. Seriously. I love it!

2011-11-29T14:25:00.001-07:00

I just found the most adorable outfit ever. Seriously. If you ever, ever find a dress like this, please, please, please inform me immediately!

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Ramblings and epiphanies

2011-11-14T11:11:00.001-07:00

I think I just had a slight epiphany about myself and how others see me. In some ways I may come across as someone who is always jumping the gun. I jump to conclusions daily, and am always planning for future events. I can also be very impulsive and sometimes say something without thinking about it clearly in my head. I've realized also that I am not very good at expressing myself in speaking. Sometimes it is very difficult for me to share what I am feeling in my heart and place it into words. Often the feelings that I have are inexpressible or so deep that words wouldn't do them justice. For this reason, I think I may come across as if I have not thought my decisions out thoroughly or am making decisions based on other opinions. Sometimes I do make decisions based on other opinions. For instance, if Christopher tells me he likes a certain sweater or the smell of my hair products, I am definitely more likely to wear that sweater when I see him or buy that specific hair product. Though I may give into trends and other opinions very easily on little things, I am not one to do so with big life decisions. When it comes to big decisions that will have huge impact on my life, I do not take them lightly. With things like that, I tend to think and think and think, then think some more. I don't know if you know this, but I am one prone to pondering. I like to think all options out. I like to know the pros and cons. I like to observe the experiences of others and internalize how that would work in my life. I know that I don't know everything (now you have it in writing mom). But, I do know that I know better what is going on in my heart and mind better than others. Though I am very stubborn about making decisions for myself, I am thankful for the wisdom and guidance I am given by my loving family and good friends. It is really a wonderful think to know that I am loved by so many people. Sometimes, or more like all times, I am not very good at taking advice. I am really stubborn. But then sometimes after I have time to process, I can see how such wisdom can help me. Saying that, I have also come to realize that I need to trust myself. I need to trust my heart, trust the promptings of the spirit always, and do what I need to do for me, and somehow mingle what I think is best with what third party eyes see as better. Growing up is way more complicated than I ever thought it would be.

Proper introduction

2011-11-12T22:26:00.001-07:00

I realized this week that I haven't introduced you to Christopher properly. So, I thought I would share a little bit about the man that I spend so much of my time with.

Chris will be twenty-three is December. In fact, we are exactly six months apart. He loves alfredo sauce, apple juice, McDonald's (still don't understand that one) and ice cream (that I understand). He served his mission in Lubbock, Texas and returned home last August. He is currently attending SAIT in the IT program with a major in Networking. He's a super brainiac when it comes to anything involving technology. Christopher is a really ambitious, but pretty laid back guy. He's not one to worry too much about things he can't control, so I feel he balances we out well that way. Chris loves movies, especially Transformers and Disney movies. In fact, you can often catch us singing along to our favourite Disney songs (usually Aladdin, Beauty and the Beast or The Lion King) in the car, or whilst cooking dinner. Chris also works at Shaw as a Technical Service Rep (I think that's what TSR stands for...).

Chris just really likes to have a good time. He doesn't have a very quiet laugh, which I kind of love. I like being able to tell when he finds something funny. He even laughs at my jokes too, so I think he's a keeper in that respect.

Christopher is also one of the sweetest people I know. He is super thoughtful and always willing to do whatever he can to help.

That's a really brief description, I know. But, a figured a short one is better than nothing.

Should I?

2011-11-08T13:17:00.000-07:00

So, I am really considering getting an e-reader. I know I have not been a big supporter of them in the past, but I am actually quite impressed with the new ones out there (like the Kindle Fire, Kobo Vox, Nook Color). It's a bit of an investment, so I am doing a lot of research right now to make sure that it will be worth it. So, friends, I need your help. Do you have an e-reader? Do you love it? Why? What issues have you had?
Thanks, friends!

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Halloween

2011-11-06T22:34:00.001-07:00

Remember that time I asked for opinions and help for our Halloween costume?
Well, after much thought, we finally decided on something two days before the day. Christopher really wanted to go as a 1920's mobster, but I didn't want to go as a flapper (those dresses do not look good on me), so after a little research, I found the perfect one: Bonnie and Clyde. Even though we had to explain our costume to everyone, I still think it was a winner.
I am excited to see what we'll come up with next year!

Help, please!

2011-10-26T14:27:00.001-06:00

All right, friends. I need your help.

On Friday night, there is a YSA dance for Halloween. Christopher and I need a costume! I prefer couple costumes that match. But, I am having a hard time thinking of anything.

So, please. Help!

"Two years is a long time"

2011-10-23T22:19:00.000-06:00

"Two years is a long time". "People change".
Over and over I heard these words, and over and over I ignored them.
When my boyfriend of nearly two years left for his mission to California, I knew that there were a lot of unknowns in our future. But that didn't matter for me at that time because there were two knowns: we loved each other, and he needed to serve a mission.
Now that I look back on it, I realize that at that time I exercised the most faith I ever have in my life. I knew that two years would be hell. I knew that I would be lonely. I knew that I would have a lot of opposition. But I also couldn't ignore the comfort that I received daily. For a lot of that time, I honestly felt like I was carried through my trials. There were many nights spent crying myself to sleep, many days questioning my decisions.
I was committed, and willing to see it through. But then things gradually started to change. I didn't share my feelings with a lot of people because I was really confused, and for a lot of the time I didn't know how to express my feelings. And also, it really wasn't anyone's business.
With everything that I have been through in the last four months, I have realized that my feelings and plans two years ago were not misguided or unreal. At that time I really knew what I wanted. I acted with faith knowing that Heavenly Father would bless me with the desire of my heart. I just didn't know then that His plan was slightly different from my plan. Not better, just different.

I have been given a lot of advice from some very well meaning people that just want me to be happy. I am thankful for the support that I have in that regard. I also have been able to see how important my own agency and the ability that I have to choose for myself. I have learned that despite good intentions of others, I am the only one that really knows my own mind and my situation. With some help from my Heavenly Father, I know that I can be guided to the best decisions possible.
I have learned a lot these past two years. I went through trials that I know will help me in my life. I had very unique opportunities that have helped to shape me into the woman I am today and the woman I am still becoming.

I really don't regret how my life has played out. I really do feel that everything happened the way it did for a reason. I feel like in some ways, I know those reasons, but I also know that I won't find out until the eternities. But, until then, I am happy with knowing the little bits that I do know.

Yes, two years is a long time and yes, people change. I know that now.

Let's Hear it for the Boys

2011-10-17T21:28:00.002-06:00

It makes me really sad when people have negative feelings towards men. I know that there are many guys out there that don't make the best choices, and make problems for the rest of the male population. But in my life, I have been blessed to know so many good men. Men are essential to our life here on earth. I don't mean that in an anti-feminist way, I just mean that we need them, and they need us. The men in my life bring humour, a sense of safety, and treat me so well, reminding me that I am a choice daughter of God.

When I think about the best men I know, there are six names that come immediately to mind.

My Papa is one of the kindest men I know. He loves my Granny, his family and the gospel. He is so hard working, and such a good example to his entire family.

My dad is one of the most selfless people I know. He always puts his family first, no matter what. He loves his wife dearly, and he does his best for his family. Despite hard times, he provides for his family every way that he can. My dad is another really great example to me.

My brother David is one of the funniest people I know. David loves a good laugh, and loves to share laughter and humour with everyone around him. He is the best big brother. He is kind, protective, and always lets me know when he thinks I could be doing better. His creativity in his photography amazes me, and he is one of my best friends.

My brother-in-law, James is one of the most hard-working men I know. He has a busy job, a busy calling, and a new family and he does his best in every single of those parts of his life. It's really neat to see the care that James takes with my nephew, Joey. He is a natural father.

Justin is probably the best living example of a friend. Justin has such a kind heart. He is really truly, a gentleman and often puts others above himself. He tries his best to make others happy, and make them as comfortable, even in the most awkward of situations (trust me on this one!). Justin is also a very forgiving person and sees the good in life.

Christopher is one of the sweetest people I know. He is always conscious of the needs of others, and likes to make me smile. Chris knows how to make me feel like the most important woman in the world. He is smart. He is also a gentleman. Plus, if you ever need to help moving, he is your guy -- trust me.

I am so blessed. Seriously. I could go on and on with the list of other men in my life that have made a big impact on it. There are so many good men out there, just trying to do their best.

Ladies, please treat men with the respect that they deserve. There are so many Prince Charmings and Knights in Shining Armour, just waiting for you to give them a chance. Don't give up on that fairy tale. It exists. Trust me.

It's been a while...

2011-10-12T10:01:00.000-06:00

I promised my dear cousin Sarah last week that I would post by the end of the week... but then I didn't. I apologize. Things have been a little crazy over here. Not bad crazy, just busy crazy. Lots happening.
So, let's summarize the last month, shall we?
School is now in full swing, and I am still enjoying it. I had a midterm yesterday (yuck) and have some papers due near the end of the month, so we'll see if I'm still enjoying school then. I am taking American Literature, Intro to Greece and Rome and History of Psychological Thought.
Work has been good. It seems I am rarely there anymore, since my school schedule cuts into most of the time that I would be working.
Christopher and I have had a lot of fun so far this fall. There have been some movie dates, many nights watching The Office and the occasional fancier night out. Chris just got a job this month, so we see each other much less than we used to, but we still see each other every day, even if it's just during an hour break that we have between classes. It's definitely an adjustment, since we've been used to seeing each other every night after school for the past month, but that's what phones are for. Chris' job at Shaw will definitely be helpful to his future career (he is in the IT program at SAIT), so I should be thankful for that.
I still love my house, and am enjoying this time I have to live with good roommates and be independent. One of roommates is getting married next month, which is a happy/sad thing (I'll miss you, Megan!), but I am happy that we've found a new roommate!
All in all, things are good. I love my life.

xo

Forget about the price tag...

2011-09-15T09:06:00.000-06:00

It's a very sad thing that I am always so in love with the most expensive things. It seems that when it comes to fashion, my heart will only land on the items with the highest price tags. I don't know how it happens, but seriously, it's a problem. If you were to show me five pairs of shoes, I would unknowingly pick the most expensive ones.
This, I have decided, is why I must love Shabby Apple. It's not the most expensive shop, but it's also not the cheapest. I had planned to get a dress from there this summer, but it didn't happen. I'll need to save up my pennies to get one this winter. Or maybe I'll get one in the spring. I do prefer getting new dresses in the spring.
For now, I have plenty of new pretty things to keep my eyes and heart happy. Check out their new line, Academia. Being an academic myself, I am obviously head-over-heels-in-love.

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Which is your favourite?

Wednesday Wisdom

2011-09-14T11:48:00.002-06:00

I have one tiny bit of wisdom for you today. It is this: you know that a guy is worth keeping when he holds you tight and lets you ugly cry (I think we all know what ugly cry is) on him because the book you're currently reading is at a really sad part.

Joey

2011-09-08T09:14:00.000-06:00

This weekend I had the chance to spend some extra time with my favourite little guy, Joey. He is growing up so fast, I can't believe it! On Sunday, he was one month old. One month! And today, he is five weeks old. Time has been flying.
I am so excited to see this little boy grow up. We're already best friends. It is going to be so much fun when he can walk and talk. But for now, I am content with my snuggles. I love snuggles with my Joey.

Yeah, be jealous. I do have the sweetest, cutest, and smartest nephew.

When I Grow Up

2011-09-07T22:44:00.001-06:00

I am a grown-up. Seriously. For as long as I can remember, I have wanted to be a grown-up. When I was younger, I wanted to make my own rules and do everything that I wanted to do. I wanted to have my own money, and my own house, and have no bedtime. I thought that would be the life. But in my mind, growing up and getting on to bigger and better things always seemed so far away.
First, I graduated from elementary and went on to junior high. That was scary, but thrilling at the same time, because it meant that I was growing up. Then I went from junior high to high school and that was actually pretty awesome. I thought I was so cool. High school was a blast, and had little to no drama at all. But by the end of that, I was ready for my next move -- university. Though incredibly daunting, university was still a natural shift for me. And I've been in that same phase for a while now.
Since I moved out this summer, I have moved up a level in my grown-up status. Paying rent and bills sucks, but it has taught me a lot of self-reliance and self-mastery. I'm glad for that experience. With the end of my current university career actually sort-of in sight (I have about a year and a half left), I am realizing that I am going to be more of a grown-up that I had expected. Plus, there's that whole marriage and kids thing. I am not at that point yet, but I know that it will be there eventually (don't worry -- I am not engaged, nor will I be soon).
It's just crazy to think that I am at the point that I am right now. I am a full-fledged grown-up. And it's definitely terrifying, yet kind of amazing.

Dressed Up & In Line

2011-09-05T23:20:00.002-06:00

I love when an outfit just comes together. When every piece of that ensemble just makes your heart happy and you feel like your life could never be complete again without it. That's how I felt yesterday as a got dressed for church.
Polka dots. Pink scarf. Cardi. Geek glasses.
In love.

Ideas, please!

2011-09-04T01:36:00.000-06:00

September is here, and school is just around the corner. I can't believe it. This semester will be a very different one, especially with me not living at home anymore. I don't know why that really makes a difference, but it seems too. Perhaps because with my hours at work going down because of classes, I actually need to save as much money as possible so I don't get stuck with no money, because let's face it -- paying rent sucks.
So, on to my original purpose for this post. Being a student, and dating a student (Christopher starts school at SAIT next week) means that money for dates is very scarce. However, I am a big believer in dating, so I need some help with ideas for cheap, inexpensive, and even no-cost dates. Please, help!
xo

Wednesday Wisdom

2011-08-31T10:39:00.001-06:00

I have some wisdom for you today. It is this: sometimes, you just need to breathe. No matter what you choose to do in life, someone will have something negative to say about it. Sometimes they will say it to your face, and sometimes they'll say it to someone else. But, getting upset and reacting to it won't help. And sometimes you have to step outside of yourself and look at it from their perspective. Sometimes they're just trying to help.
Just breathe. Focus on being happy. Focus on the here, the now. Be patient.
Oh man, I need to take my own advice!

I'm glad that I live in this beautiful world...

2011-08-30T11:38:00.002-06:00

Last night for FHE, we had a wonderful lesson about the creation and how everything in this world denotes that there really is a God and that there are so many things around us that demonstrate His love for us. I am so grateful for all of the beautiful things that I get to see each and every day. It makes my heart so happy to know that my Heavenly Father loves me.

Yes, I know Heavenly Father loves me.

2011-08-27T13:00:00.001-06:00

Yep, we're awesome.

Progress

2011-08-27T09:05:00.000-06:00

Remember this, this, this, this and this? Yep, it's still growing.

And I love it!

Fireworks

2011-08-27T08:25:00.000-06:00

Two words. Italy and fireworks. Yes, please! Thursday night was the first time that I have been so moved by a display of fireworks that I nearly cried. Seriously. Italy was the contender at Globalfest that night and they were so amazing. The music was amazing (minus the Katy Perry that they had to use), and the fireworks were choreographed so well. If you were to add those fireworks to the pineapple from Bolero, I'd say I could die a happy woman. Oh, and another great thing about that night, I finally got my mini-donuts, which we missed out on Friday night (stupid lines).
I am so glad Christopher got passes this year! I love fireworks, especially having someone to share them with. Few things are better than watching amazing fireworks with a boy -- especially a boy like Christopher.

Tunes for Tuesday

2011-08-23T13:05:00.002-06:00

This past week, it seems like Christopher and I have been driving around a lot. And being the sweet guy he is, he always lets me choose the music.
Here are my top picks this week.

1. "Party Rock Anthem", LMFAO
2. "American Love", Jack's Mannequin
3. "Magic", B.o.B. feat. Rivers Cuomo
4. "Nothing Left", One Night Only
5. "Stand by Me", John Lennon
6. "Sweet Disposition", The Temper Trap
7. "Yellow Brick Road", Angus & Julia Stone
8. "As Lovers Go", Dashboard Confessional
9. "You Make Me Feel So Young", Frank Sinatra
10. "Ain't No Mountain High", Marvin Gaye

Happy Tuesday, friends. I promise I will get back into blogging regularly. I've really missed it, actually.

Introduction

2011-08-15T09:59:00.000-06:00

It's been a while! And there is someone new in my life that I want you to meet.
His name is Joseph. And he is pretty much my favourite person in the world right now.
On August 4 at 8:40 am, Joseph Grant was born. I was at EFY that week, and wasn't able to meet him until Sunday morning (because he was in the hospital for a few extra days). I love this little boy.
This past Saturday, after my second week of EFY, Christopher and I stopped by to see Joey. He was just as cute as I remembered him, and probably even more. Chris was really good with him, and it was really nice to see him hold him. There's something about a guy holding a baby -- probably one of the most attractive things.
I am so excited to see Joey grow up. I know he is going to be such a great kid because he'll have me to show him the ropes, but more importantly, he has great parents that love him very much, and awesome grandparents and a really cool uncle to teach him in the ways of life.

I love being an aunt!

That's Life

2011-07-20T22:34:00.000-06:00

Sometimes things don't go as planned. That happens. I hate when it happens, but lately I've tried to just accept it -- maybe even embrace it.
I am also realizing that sometimes, there is more than one right answer. Sometimes, there are two really good choices, and either one will get us to the right destination.
Right now I am not in the position I was expecting to be a year ago. But, I am happy, and to me that is more important than doing something half-heartedly just because I said I would.
Life is challenging, ever changing, but always wonderful.

Jonathan Adler

2011-07-20T09:41:00.001-06:00

Dear Jonathan Adler, thank you for making pretty things to make my heart and eyes happy. It was a treat to see this in my inbox this week. But, I only have one problem, that mirror is more than a month's rent.
Anyone willing to part with a little money to get me this?

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Wicked

2011-07-19T10:16:00.000-06:00

As I mentioned before, my roommates (Chantelle, Candi and Megan) and Chris got me tickets for Wicked for my birthday. Finally, the day arrived on Friday. After seeing Harry Potter with Marni, I came home, got ready and went to Chris' where he had dinner ready for me. I love having someone cook me dinner!
We then went to the Jubilee (after a quick stop at my house, because I forgot the tickets!). I felt like such a classy grown up, walking to the theatre in my favourite (hot pink) pumps, holding the hand of my handsome boyfriend.
I knew that the play would be good. But, I was not prepared for how spectacular it was. Seriously. If you ever get a chance to see Wicked, please do. Words can't even describe. It was just fantastic!

After the show, we stopped by the YSA dance, and though we felt a little out of place being all dressed up, it was a nice way to end the night.

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Thank you again, Chantelle, Candi, Megan and Chris. Seriously. You are the best. ("How did you know?")

The End

2011-07-15T16:17:00.000-06:00

I really need to be getting ready to go out to see Wicked tonight, but I need to tell you how in love I am with a little something called Harry Potter. Marni and I saw the movie today (happy birthday, favourite sister!), and it was ... amazing. Seriously. I laughed. I cried. I smiled. My heart grew with anticipation and excitement, and broke into pieces too. It was splendidly done. I am so sad that this means that it's really over. But, I am so glad that as always, Harry and his mates will always be there for me and I can experience life with them again through these brilliant books and movies.
Also, Neville Longbottom! Hello! Can he please be my boyfriend? (I think Chris would understand, right?)

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Three hours

2011-07-15T09:06:00.000-06:00

In three hours, I will be sitting in a theatre with my favourite sister, awaiting the beginning of the end of Harry Potter. I still can't believe that this day has come. I am anxious, giddy, sad, excited. I might start hyperventilating soon. Oh boy.

Tunes for Tuesday

2011-07-12T23:04:00.000-06:00

These songs have been going on repeat both in my head and on my iPod all week. It's been lovely (especially to combat the country I have to listen to at work this week).

1. "Big Jet Plane", Angus & Julia Stone

2. "Dancing through Life", Wicked Soundtrack

3. "Hollywood", Michael Buble

4. "You Can't Stop the Beat", Hairspray Soundtrack

5. "Waters Edge", We Shot the Moon

6. "This Charming Man", The Smiths

7. "I Want the World to Stop", Belle & Sebastian

8. "Hoppipolla", Sigur Ros

9. "Breakfast at Tiffany's", Deep Blue Something

10. "Stay Young, Go Dancing", Death Cab for Cutie

Happy Tuesday! Happy listening!

Clumsy

2011-07-12T10:05:00.002-06:00

I should not be allowed to be given ice cream or frozen yogurt. You should not let such good, perishable things into my clumsy hands. Seriously.
Last night after FHE, Chris and I went to Spoon Me. Since about three or more of blog friends have mentioned it in the last few weeks, I decided we needed to try it. I was pretty safe and had the vanilla bean (which I believe was the best compared to Chris' Mango Orange and Acai) with Froot Loops. It was super tasty and I was really enjoying it on the way home until I set it between my legs and it fell. It's a good thing that I eat ice cream fast because I was able to get about half of it before the disaster.
We will be making another trip soon.

Dear NBC

2011-07-06T19:00:00.000-06:00

Dearest NBC, you know that I have mad love for you. You bring me laughs and make my heart happy via Liz Lemon, and Jim Halpert. But, what made you think you could add James Spader to the cast of The Office? First you take away Steve Carrell (yes, I know that that really wasn't your fault, but today I am blaming you) and then you add him? Really? This is not okay.

Canada Day Weekend

2011-07-06T16:52:00.007-06:00

Happy belated birthday, Canada!
This Canada Day weekend was a pretty swell one. It began with breakfast with my roommate Megan, Chris and the missionaries in our ward. Megan made yummy pancakes (blueberry and chocolate chip) and we had a good time. Many laughs.
I unfortunately had to work that night, but the day ended well when Chris picked me up and took me to watch the fireworks. We realized that we were on the wrong side to see them, but it was still nice -- especially because I had a yummy Peters' milkshake to enjoy.
Saturday morning, I went to Marni's to watch Harry Potter. We planned to watch the first few, but only got through the first one before we switched over to Gilmore Girls. Then, that night I tried my hand at alfredo sauce, followed by some Big Bang Theory (that has been my nightly routine for the last month!), and a lovely walk (minus the mosquitos).
Oh, and I can't forget Sunday. A super day of church, followed by some yummy fondue for dinner, and chocolate fondue for dessert. It was splendid.

Chris and I after the fireworks.

Note to self: eat more fondue, and take more pictures!

May leftovers

2011-06-30T13:25:00.000-06:00

Now that it's almost July, I figure it's probably time to post some pictures from May. I only put these pictures on my computer last week (and snagged some from Chantelle), so that would be the reason for the delay.

May was a blur. Not too much happened, but enough to keep me happy.

Enjoy the next few pictures.

For potluck FHE, we had a Cinco de Mayo theme, so I made Churro cupcakes. I love trying new things -- especially when we're talking about cupcakes.

At the end of May, there was a YSA dance. It was a black light dance and it was actually pretty sweet -- except for the fact that it was really hard to see people. At least I always knew where Candi, Chantelle and Megan were thanks to their bright shirts.

When we came home from the dance that night, things got a little silly. You want a glow stick moustache too, don't you?

I also went with some friends to Drumheller. After a week of rain, we enjoyed a lovely day full of sunshine (and wind too). Hoodoos, mini chapels, dinosaurs. It was great. Also, I got to choose the music, so yeah it was awesome.

There you have it. I promise to be more diligent in my blogging efforts the rest of this summer. I've actually missed it quite a bit. Plus, I have a few good adventures ahead of me that will need to published.

Wednesday Wisdom

2011-06-29T17:45:00.001-06:00

If I can offer one piece of advice today (or really this month) it is this: don't be too disappointed or worry too much when your plans don't work out the way you hoped or expected. Things will work out in one way or another.
I love to plan. I love to have a clear view of where I am headed. And lately, that once clear vision that I had is pretty hazy. And I am learning that that is okay. It's okay not to know. Sometimes -- most of the time, actually -- you just need faith.

Baby shower

2011-06-28T17:15:00.000-06:00

As I have mentioned a few times before, my sister is pregnant with her first child (my first nephew) and is due later this summer (in about seven weeks). This is of course another excuse for me to plan a party. So, that's what I did. On Saturday, I had a baby shower for Marni. This one was for close friends, and I am planning on having another one for family after the little guy is born.
Despite my lack of planning (don't ever plan a party while moving!) and my original vision not coming to life, it was a good time. We had good food, had many laughs and ''oooed and awwed" at the adorable presents Marni got. Seriously, this little boy is extremely well loved.

A plethora of presents!

More presents!

Sisters

So excited for my little Lem to come!

The momma to be! Yep, she's definitely pregnant!

"They say it's your birthday..."

2011-06-26T18:33:00.000-06:00

Hello, friends. It has been far, far too long.
A lot has happened in the past few weeks. However, I will not bore you with all of the sordid details of my life -- plus, I don't want to.
So, let's start with the fun stuff.
Last week, I had my birthday. I am now twenty-two, which feels much more grown-up than twenty-one.
I had a pretty fabulous birthday. I was kidnapped, taking to Montana's against my will, had a birthday mango (I think we should start a new tradition, mom) and felt a lot of the birthday love.
I'll let the pictures do the talking now.

After an eight hour shift of work and being kidnapped before I could go home to change and fix my hair. I love my roommates -- really, I actually do.

Chris, me and Megan. Chantelle and Candi were there too, but they were on the other side.

Chantelle's apology ice cream from our sever Jeff. He wasn't very good. But, he did enjoy talking to us --- A LOT.

Oh, if only big moose horns were in style...

My reaction when they gave me their present -- two tickets to see Wicked!

This is the only picture I took on my actual birthday -- Chris' attempt at cutting my birthday mango.

And there you have it folks. I didn't die. I am very much alive, and even one year older. I promise more posts will come shortly.

Tunes for Thursday

2011-06-09T23:37:00.000-06:00

I missed it on Tuesday, but still had some music to share, so Thursday it is! This week, it's all about musicals. I love musicals. A lot. Last night falling asleep, and this morning getting ready for work, I listened to some of my favourite songs from movies. It definitely gives me sweeter dreams (though I don't remember.. sure they were sweet though), and a better attitude towards working.

1. "Put On Your Sunday Clothes", Hello Dolly
2. "Loverly", My Fair Lady
3. "Something Good", The Sound of Music
4. "All I Ask of You", The Phantom of the Opera
5. "So They Say", Dr. Horrible's Sing-A-Long Blog
6. "I Have Confidence", The Sound of Music
7. "'S Wonderful", Funny Face
8. "Matchmaker", Fiddler on the Roof
9. "Don't Rain on My Parade", Funny Girl
10. "Welcome to the 60's", Hairspray
11. "Seasons of Love", Rent
12. "You're the One that I Want", Grease
13. "Jolly Holiday", Mary Poppins
14. "Music of the Night", Phantom of the Opera
15. "Jet Song", West Side Story

Let's face it, musicals are the best. If you don't share that opinion, we're probably not friends (or should now end or friendship) and I'm sorry for you. Seriously, musicals will enrich your life!

Moved in

2011-06-05T23:20:00.002-06:00

I am moved in, but still not yet completely unpacked. But, my bed is set up, which is all that matters to me right now. I still have a lot to get used to, but I really love living here. I love my roommates. Seriously. Fits of giggles before roommate prayer tonight. I love these girls.
I promise to post pictures once I unpack my camera.
Goodnight
xoxo

Apple

2011-06-04T22:02:00.000-06:00

Dear gala apple that I just devoured,
I appreciate that you were super tasty and satisfied my need to eat, while not being one of those mean things that are 'a moment on the lips, forever on the hips'. Yes, you were extremely yummy and juicy. But did you really have to spill onto my notes for my lesson tomorrow?
xo,
Kristi Beth

Note to self: wear a catch-all bib the next time I eat an apple.

Tunes for Tuesday

2011-05-31T22:37:00.000-06:00

Today has been a day filled with packing, throwing out things I don't need, and then moving some of my stuff into my new place. It's been kind of a crazy day in that way, so I was happy that I have some time tonight to just relax and read (The Help by Kathryn Stockett). While I read, I decided I needed some music too. It was a great half hour. Just me, my book and great music.
So, tonight, this is my list of perfect songs for a relaxing morning/afternoon/evening/whenever-you-can-spare-a-moment.

1. "Song for You", Alexi Murdoch (I love Alexi Murdoch. Amazing).
2. "Love and Some Verses", Iron & Wine (It's impossible not to fall in love listening to this song. Trust me).
3. "Eastern Glow", The Album Leaf (So mellow. So perfect).
4. "Kissing the Lipless", The Shins (I have nothing but serious love for The Shins).
5. "Transatlanticism", Death Cab for Cutie (So in love with this song. So in love with Death Cab).
6. "Wonderwall", Ryan Adams (I love this cover of the Oasis classic).
7. "Sunshine", Matt Costa (Really, you can never go wrong with a little Matt Costa).
8. "St. Peter's Cathedral", Death Cab for Cutie (I am extra in love with Death Cab today, because their new album came out. This may be my favourite song).
9. "Why Do You Let Me Stay Here", She & Him (I have said it many times, and I will say it many more times, I want to be Zooey Deschannel).
10. "I Just Don't Think I'll Ever Get Over You", Colin Hay (Beautiful, beautiful song).

"Now show me something pretty..."

2011-05-28T10:00:00.001-06:00

I love pretty things. Whether it's a pretty flower, a pretty dress or a pretty necklace. The list goes on and on. My eyes and heart appreciate the beauty I get to see every day. So, I need to share my new find. Funky Vintage Lovely. Pretty pretty necklaces, barrettes, bookmarks, earrings and rings and pillows too.

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I feel pretty just looking at these beauties!

Here in this diary

2011-05-26T10:24:00.000-06:00

I am a person that needs to express my feelings. When I don't, bad things happen. Either I explode or I eat a million cupcakes and then explode.
One of the ways that I express myself is through writing. I love to write. Whether it's a blog post, like this, letter to my missionary, or even a grocery list. In a way it is all therapeutic for me. So, this week I decided that I needed to start writing in a proper paper journal again. I realized that there are many things that I find too personal to say on here, and that those things need to be expressed. Plus, I need to keep better track of my life. Already my mind is clearer and I don't feel as stressed or tense.

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What do you do to express your feelings? How do you deal with stress?

Maxi love

2011-05-25T22:49:00.002-06:00

When trends are in their first stages, I tend to stay away. Skinny jeans, ballet flats, tunics, Ugg boots (still iffy on that one), and more. I swore over and over that I would not give in, or that I couldn't pull it off. And then a few months or years down the road, I think "Hmm, that's not that bad". And now, I have something new to add to that list. Maxi dresses. When they become popular a few years ago, I didn't like them. I thought I had to be a size two and six feet tall in order to have any chance of wearing one. But, this spring, I have been seeing them everywhere, so I decided to try one. And guess what? I am in LOVE. Head over heels. I will need one for every day of the week -- or month.

To keep it modest, just add a short-sleeved tee or a cardigan and you're set!

one; two (I bought this one); three; four

Tunes for Tuesday

2011-05-24T23:35:00.000-06:00

On this rainy Tuesday, I want to share some favourite songs of the day. They are sure to get you smiling and possibly even up dancing away the rainy day blues.

1. "Island in the Sun", Weezer

2. "Love Train", The O'Jays

3. "Vienna", Matt Costa

4. "Detroit '67", Sam Roberts

5. "Jungle Love", Steve Miller Band

6. "Sweet Disposition", The Temper Trap

7. "Magic" B.o.B feat. Rivers Cuomo

8. "Got My Mind Set On You", George Harrison

9. "Love Will Keep Us Together", Captain & Tennille

10. "Lost in My Mind", The Head and the Heart

"I wish I could speak whale."

2011-05-23T21:55:00.000-06:00

Because of the holiday today, we didn't have our usual ward FHE. So, tonight, we watched "Finding Nemo". It was awesome. Truly. I always forget how great that movie is, and then I watch it and I am reminded every single second. Many laughs were had. Thanks for joining me, friends (all three of you!).

Dude!

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A First

2011-05-21T22:30:00.001-06:00

Today at work, I was talking with a co-worker of mine. She asked about my sister having a baby, and asked if I was looking forward to it. "Of course" I said, and then told her that besides being a mother, I have always wanted to be a aunt. Immediately, she asked if I was Mormon. That was a first. I don't believe I have ever been asked that out of the blue. She said that she had only heard someone say that if they were Mormon. I was kind of surprised by that. But then, thinking about it more, it makes sense. The gospel is so focused on the family that it would make sense that she would say that.

I am really so happy that I was raised in a home where motherhood was given the respect that it deserves. I can't wait to a mommy and spend every day with my favourite little ones. Dear little ones in heaven, mommy can't wait to meet you!

The Head and the Heart

2011-05-19T17:12:00.000-06:00

Last night before I went to bed, I found out that Jim Parson (aka Sheldon Cooper) would be on Jimmy Fallon. Awesome, right? Yes. So, I recorded it. But, the best part of the story is this: The Head and The Heart was the musical guest! My friend introduced me to the band about a month ago, and I am so in love with them. My heart is still over joyed.
Please, please friends, do your ears and heart a favour. Listen to this song, and get the rest of the album too. Please.

You're welcome.

Institute and Candy

2011-05-18T22:33:00.001-06:00

I have been waiting for today for quite a while now. A month to be exact. The Spring/Summer semester of Institute finally started! I have really missed going to Institute every week -- actually three times a week last semester -- and going without it for the past month has been pretty awful. Going to class with the girls tonight was extra special. This semester we are studying the talks from General Conference in April. I love it! I've said it once... or three times, and I'll say it again, this is going to be a good summer!
Also, mom and dad brought me some American candy from their trip to Montana. Mmm. Cookie Dough Bites! And Reece Peanut Butter flavoured Whoppers! Be jealous.

Oh, and Chick-O-Stick too!

Thanks and poetry

2011-05-17T07:06:00.006-06:00

After writing my last post, and thinking about what I am thankful for, I was reminded of one of my very favourite poems written by the wonderful E. E. Cummings. I remember the first I time I read this poem, almost two years ago in the beginning of my third year of university. My heart just melts every time I read it and I see beauty in every single word. I love the power of poetry.

i thank you God for most this amazing

i thank You God for most this amazing
day:for the leaping greenly spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky;and for everything
which is natural which is infinite which is yes

(i who have died am alive again today,
and this is the sun's birthday;this is the birth
day of life and love and wings:and of the gay
great happening illimitably earth)

how should tasting touching hearing seeing
breathing any-lifted from the no
of all nothing-human merely being
doubt unimaginable You?

(now the ears of my ears awake and
now the eyes of my eyes are opened)

Blessings

2011-05-16T23:06:00.000-06:00

I am so blessed every single day. Whether it's an extra hour of work, a text from a friend or a sunny day, I am blessed. I try to recognize these blessings every day and be grateful for them, but sometimes it's hard. Sometimes I am focused on what I don't have, and what I want but can't have. I would love to say that I am always seeing the positive, but to be honest, I am not. I often have to stop and look for it very closely. I know that I am receiving blessings and miracles every day, but sometimes my clouded eyes don't see them. I let my vision become blurred by my trials and failures and forget that I am supposed to go through these tough times so that I can see the good. I know that there is opposition in all things, but some days I forget that along with opposition comes great things. I have a loving family, a supportive group of friends, a wonderful ward family, a superb extended family, a job that doesn't make me want to poke out my eyes (most days), hands and feet and legs and arms that work, ears that hear and eyes that see. I have talents that I can use to help others, and others have many more talents that help me.
Even though I complain a lot, and usually about the stupid things, I am happy with my life. And I am happy that I get to share my life with the best people. If you are reading this, I probably love you.
xo

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Can't Stop Partying

2011-05-15T22:55:00.000-06:00

This last week was a week of parties. From Tuesday to Saturday, I had some really amazing nights with my best friends. Tuesday we had a Phase 10 party, which was of course good as always. I love it. Then on Friday, we had our first fire of the year -- and it was perfect. Candi had sugar and laughed the whole night. We also invented the newest fire side sensation -- the S'moreo. Try it friends, it's amazing. Perhaps the best part of the night was playing Catch Phrase by fire light. Skip-skip-skip.
Again, I just have to say, this will be a great summer! Dear friends, I love you!

A, B or C

2011-05-15T19:31:00.000-06:00

I really, really want a dress from Shabby Apple this summer. Even though one dress would be a month's worth of my clothing budget (or more), it would be worth it. But, of course like with everything else in my life, I can't decide! I am not very good at making decisions, especially when there are so many good options out there. So, I am asking you, my trusty friends and readers to help me choose.

a,b or c

WHICH ONE?!

Summertime

2011-05-11T19:17:00.000-06:00

I have a really good feeling about this summer. We are finally getting some much needed sun this week and my eyes are sore from the brightness (even after wearing my sunglasses) -- this is actually a great thing considering I was sure I would be wearing my winter jacket and boots year round.
Not only has the sun been shining, but I have had extra good times with my amazing friends this week. Driving home after an awesome FHE, blasting music ("I've got the magic in me!") while the teenaged boys laugh next to us, a really violent game of Phase 10 (violent in words, not in action). This is just the beginning of a great summer.
I love the sun. I love my friends. I love summer.

Mothers Day

2011-05-08T20:20:00.000-06:00

Happy day to my favourite mommy! My mom has taught me so many things over the years, and she continues to teach me every day. She has helped me become the woman I am today and the woman I will continue to become.
Happy day mommy, I love you!

Thanksgiving 2007

Cut?

2011-05-05T23:06:00.000-06:00

This week I have been itching to cut my hair. Yes, I know I have already come so far in growing it out. But some days I just want to chop it off. I like having short hair and it's been nearly two years since I last had it short. But then I remember that I like my long hair and want to keep growing it so that I can do this with my hair and this too.
Now I just need to wait for it to grow a few more inches. Waiting, always waiting.

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Wednesday Wisdom

2011-05-04T19:26:00.000-06:00

Over the past few years, I have developed quite a love for baking. I love being creative, and baking and cooking is one of my many outlets for creativity. In my years of experience, I have learned a lot. One of those, I just learned in the last week and I wish that I had known about this trick years ago!
Have you ever made cupcakes and struggled with getting them all perfectly the right size without spilling the batter all over? I have. But, now I have found the solution! Are you ready to hear it?
An ice cream scoop! Yep, it's that simple. Just find yourself a good ice cream scoop with the spring-action handle and you are set. Just scoop up a little batter and then release it into the cups. Genius, right?
Finally all of the baking shows have done something for me besides make me crave sweets!

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30 Day Song Challenge: Day Five

2011-05-03T20:00:00.000-06:00

Day five: A song that reminds you of someone

Most of the songs I listen to will remind me of someone, or somewhere. The one that I wish to share today is what Justin and I consider 'our song'. I can't listen to it without a face in my mind and a smile on my face.

And just for fun, let's throw in a little Jack Johnson too.

Tears on your yoga mat

2011-05-03T17:04:00.001-06:00

This morning, while I was doing yoga (Yoga for the Warrior with Bob Harper), and at one point, he said something about letting it go, and just focusing on that pose at that moment, and right then and there, I started to cry -- like real tears, running down my cheeks. I don't know what it is about exercise, but it makes me emotional. Maybe it's because there are some emotions and thoughts that I tend to bottle up at times and pushing my body to limits makes me so vulnerable that it all comes out. I'm not sure.
But am I the only one?

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"Hate cannot drive out hate..."

2011-05-03T10:23:00.000-06:00

Last night, one of my friends posted a great quote that said exactly what I have been thinking this week. And again this morning, another friend posted it, so I feel I need to share it.

‎"I mourn the loss of thousands of precious lives, but I will not rejoice in the death of one, not even an enemy. Returning hate, adding deeper darkness to a night that is already void of stars. Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that." - Martin Luther King Jr.

30 Day Song Challenge: Day Four

2011-05-02T23:53:00.000-06:00

Day four: A song that makes you sad

I had a hard time finding a song that made me sad. I don't really listen to listen to songs with depressing stories (I'm not a fan of country), so it was harder for me to find one. But, this song does make me sad. Just listen. Your heart will definitely break for him a little bit.

30 Day Song Challenge: Day Three

2011-04-30T23:51:00.000-06:00

Day three: A song that makes you happy

I'm pretty sure that it is impossible to be unhappy while listening to this song (and that impossibility doubles if you watch Joseph Gordon Leavitt dance too).

30 Day Song Challenge: Day Two

2011-04-28T07:00:00.000-06:00

Day two: ~~Your least favourite song~~

It's kind of silly, I think, to post a least favourite song. So, instead I am going to share the song most recently added to my library. I don't want to subject myself, or you my reader to a song I don't like.

30 Day Song Challenge: Day One

2011-04-27T11:57:00.000-06:00

Day one: Your favourite song

I have many, many favourite songs. I have favourites from almost every decade, most genres, and it changes every day. I really can't narrow it down to one. So, how about three?

Macarons

2011-04-27T11:07:00.002-06:00

I keep seeing french macarons everywhere these days! I love the fresh and vibrant look, and I'm pretty sure the taste would be good too. Have you ever made them? Do you have a good recipe? Or tips?
I really want to try them!

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A few things...

2011-04-26T18:57:00.000-06:00

Hmm. Not much to say tonight. But, I will say that I believe in answered prayers, and in the many, many tender mercies that are extended to me each and every day. I have a Heavenly Father that knows me personally, and a Savior Jesus Christ who has made the ultimate sacrifice for me. I am feeling a lot of love this week.
Also, I love sweet potato fries. Mmm.

While We Wait

2011-04-20T23:34:00.002-06:00

Most people say that the last six months of a mission are easier for the girl at home because time passes so quickly, but that has not been my experience so far. Actually, all in all waiting for a missionary is not easy -- ever.
I feel the need to express my feelings and experiences as of late. If you are contemplating waiting for a missionary, let me ask you to stop and think for a moment. If you are not ready for daily mood swings, many, many tears, doubting your feelings on a regular basis, anxiety, fear, moments of elation followed by moments of depression, then waiting for a missionary may not be for you.
I know that my experience is unique, and not shared by all. These past eighteen and a half months have been quite the roller coaster. Some days I am reminded how much I love Justin and that he is doing the right thing, and another six months is no big deal. But then there are other days when I wonder what I am waiting for, because I can't remember what it's like to be with him. Sometimes -- especially lately -- our pre-missionary courtship is a distant dream, so much so that I feel as if I have made it all up. Of course I know that I love Justin, and our relationship is incredibly strong, and very different from others. But, that doesn't mean that I am immune to doubt and a lot of worries. I find lately that I don't judge some girls as harshly as I used to who don't wait the full two years. It's hard! I know that I can make it another 166 days, but it's really wearing me down.
On a more uplifting note, my heart has been buoyed up by the love that people express to Justin. He was transferred this week, and almost immediately after I updated his facebook status to say that he would in Yucca Valley and training again, there were many comments wishing him luck and many saying that he would be missed in the La Sierra Ward (in Riverside). He's such a special guy, and I am happy to know that others see that too.

{June 2008}

Why can't all missions be eighteen months?!

Tunes for Tuesday

2011-04-19T22:19:00.000-06:00

Some of my favourite songs today:

1. "Gravity", Sara Bareilles
2. "Forever", Chris Brown (I am not actually a Chris Brown fan, but I heard this song on Saturday, and it always reminds of Jim and Pam's wedding on The Office, so I can't help but love it)
3. "Even Now", Dashboard Confessional
4. "Anything but the Truth", Jack Johnson
5. "My Favourite Book", Stars
6. "Someone Like You", Adele
7. "This is Not an Exit", Saves the Day
8. "A Stone Would Cry Out", Sam Roberts
9. "Crooked Teeth", Death Cab for Cutie
10. "Club Can't Handle Me", Flo Rida (feat. David Guetta)

Progress

2011-04-18T11:21:00.000-06:00

After eighteen months of growing out my hair (see progress here, here, here and here), it is still getting longer!

The Weekend

2011-04-17T23:17:00.000-06:00

I have had a pretty fantastic weekend. The semester ended for me on Thursday and after this coming Thursday I am done until September! In celebration, I had one of the best weekends I've had in a really long time filled with friends, dancing, singing, Wii, slurpees, more dancing, singing, graduating from institute, great discussions, heart to hearts, and more.
I love my friends, I love the gospel, I love my life.

Also, I love to laugh, and I think you do too. So, do yourself a favour, and watch this video. You will not regret it.

Wishlist

2011-04-13T10:38:00.000-06:00

I am planning to move out very soon (either within the next month, or by June) and with that has come a lot of internet browsing of stores, trying to decide what to buy for the essentials. I have been super indecisive about things like a new bed (I need a grown-up bed!), a new duvet or comforter (and deciding which of those to get), and all of that good stuff.
Here are some things topping my list at the moment:

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Giveaway!

2011-04-12T10:13:00.000-06:00

Who doesn't love a giveaway? If you don't, stop reading now. If you do, keep reading!
My dear far-away friend, Laura has a giveaway today! A super cute giveaway.
Check it out here.

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And follow her too, I know she loves followers! She always has something to say. Also, she's pretty rad because she's a Beth middle-namer too.

The Plan

2011-04-11T21:54:00.000-06:00

I have been losing my motivation to stay in school very quickly. I'm not sure if it is because of other things that I am going through, or because I have been so unsure about what I want to do once I graduate. My dream has always been to be a mom, so having an education was not about getting a job and making money, it was about learning and bettering myself. But, with about a year left in my degree left, and other changes coming, I am not motivated to stay.
However, I realized that whether or not I use my degree professionally, I need a plan in my head. And here's the plan: to be a teacher. If I could, I would really love to teach. I found out that after I am finished this degree (my B.A.), I can go into a two-year B.Ed. After I graduate next year, I will take a year off (maybe) and then reevaluate and go for my B.Ed and become a teacher. Whether or not I actually do that, I need a plan. And I feel really good about it.
Just thought I would share.
xo

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Smile!

2011-04-06T10:14:00.000-06:00

Remember when I talked about General Conference, and how great it was? And the funny kid who turned around and smiled at the camera at the end?
This is what I was talking about:

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Thanks, Mandy for sharing these posters with me!

Tunes for Tuesday

2011-04-05T22:09:00.001-06:00

Today as I was walking to the train station downtown, yummy froyo in hand, listening to my music I felt that today, my favourite tunes of the week needed to be shared.
Ready?

1. "Rolling in the Deep" - Adele (and the entire '21' album)
2. "Your Song" - Ellie Goulding (one of my all-time faves, and she sings it beautifully)
3. "Who Knows Who Cares" - Local Natives (Thank you for the recommendation, Andrew!)
4. "Set Fire to the Third Bar" - Snow Patrol feat. Martha Wainwright (I cry nearly every time I hear this song)
5. "Warning Sign"- Coldplay (You can never go wrong with a little Coldplay)
6. "Our House"- Crosby, Stills, Nash & Young (I listen to this song at least once or twice a day)
7. "Dog Days Are Over" - Florence & The Machine (Currently my favourite solo dance party song)
8. "Inaudible Melodies"- Jack Johnson (Perfect cooking music)
9. "Because" - Cast of Across the Universe (The harmonies make my heart ache in the best way possible)
10. "Feels Good" - Matt Dusk (Always puts me in a good mood)

Now do your ears a favour and listen to something good!

Winning

2011-04-04T22:00:00.000-06:00

They did it! My favourite team, UConn, won! Even though I heard it was a poorly played game (I missed the majority of it, because my ward's FHE tonight), I am pleased with the end result.

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ps. See you in exactly six months, Justin!

General Conference

2011-04-03T19:58:00.000-06:00

Thinking about the weekend I have just had, and the opportunity I had to watch General Conference today with the rest of the world (including Riverside, CA), I am reminded of something Justin and I used to do when we were first dating. Because he lived three hours north, we didn't get to spend very much time together and spent most time texting or on the phone. So, we decided to have movie dates, where we would choose a movie that we both owned, and watch it at the same time so we could feel closer together. Watching General Conference while he was doing the exact same thing today, made me feel closer to him. The first weekend is April is probably one of my favourite times of year. General Conference. A time where I am privileged to hear from the great leaders of our church. A time where I can receive answers to my questions. A time where I get to watch the same thing that Justin is watching. A time where I can stay in my PJs all of Sunday.

Because I had to work all day yesterday, I wasn't able to watch the first two sessions of conference, so I was so excited for today. I loved every minute. I laughed, I smiled, I reevaluated, I cried. It was perfect. I received comfort, reassurance, and that little nudge to do better.

And a bonus, I got to make brunch for some of the girls in my ward. It was pretty delicious. Whole wheat pancakes and yummy fruit. Yes, please! Oh, and lots of laughter. I love those girls!

I wish we had General Conference every weekend, but maybe I wouldn't appreciate it as much if we did.

ps. Did anyone else see the kid that turned around and smiled at the camera at the end of the last session today?

To whom it may concern

2011-04-02T21:56:00.000-06:00

Dear cold that has plagued my sinuses for the last few days, I expect you to be gone in the morning when I open my eyes again.
Thank you and goodnight.
Sincerely,
Kristi Beth

Dreaming

2011-03-31T22:53:00.000-06:00

I am a dreamer (...but I'm not the only one). I have just had an epiphany of sorts, and have a new segment for my blog. My dreams. Not as in what happens in my brain during REM sleep, but what I long and wish for in life, things I want to accomplish or would just love the opportunity to do.
And as I am laying her in bed, browsing through Anthropologie's unique door handles and knobs, I was reminded of a dream of mine. I would love to have a B&B. This dream may have grown since watching the last few seasons of Gilmore Girls, where Lorelai and Sookie open the Dragonfly, but it actually started before that. I remember watching a commercial (I don't recall what it was for -- shocker), and the people in the commercial talked about their B&B. I remember one scene where the owner was making the bed. Maybe it appealed to me because I like cleaning clean spaces (void of clutter), or because they then made pancakes and I love pancakes. But, the idea of opening a home of sorts, making it my own and inviting others to come and have sleepovers all the time -- awesome, right?

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One Year, Six Months

2011-03-31T20:17:00.000-06:00

Yesterday, we reached a huge milestone! Justin has been on his mission for eighteen months! It just boggles my mind that he has been gone that long! But also that it still feels like he has been gone for five years. It hasn't been getting easier (it's actually becoming harder in some ways), but I find that I am dealing with it much better than I was a year ago -- or maybe just differently?
Anyhow. Justin is home is six months! That's right. Six months! Suffice it to say I'm slightly anxious about his homecoming!

I feel like this shows how I feel right now. AHHH!

Thoughts for Tuesday

2011-03-29T16:32:00.000-06:00

This morning, I woke up at least three times before I actually made myself get out of bed. Exhaustion and fatigue have plagued my body lately. This may be partly due to the extreme lack of sleep I experienced over the weekend, or because of my lack of motivation in life that I have been experiencing these past few months (I am still trying to figure that out).
Anyhow, on my way to class this afternoon, I was barely able to stay awake, and had difficulty focusing while I was meeting with my group for our project due in a few weeks. My group mates talked about things that didn't matter to me, were not relevant to my life. They talked about drinking Red Bull, and how they need it to write papers. I didn't join in on this part of the conversation because a) I don't drink Red Bull, and never have and b) I didn't feel like I was even part of the conversation.
Now, let's get to the point. After class, I had some extra time before my last class (Romantic Lit.) and as I felt my body dragging, I really wanted to just go home and sleep or just do nothing. But, I stopped at Jugo Juice, got a delicious mango smoothie and walked back to class, but this time I walked outside rather than just through the building. Sunshine and fruit are my energy drink. I am so happy to see sunshine today and really hope that spring can stay, because I need it to. I need sunshine in my life.
Now friends, do your spirit a favour. Eat some fruit, and catch some sun rays. I can guarantee it will lift them a little, or a lot.

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Minted

2011-03-24T15:31:00.001-06:00

Sometimes I like to glance at wedding stuff. Okay, maybe it's a little more than a glance.... More like I can browse wedding ideas and decor for hours and hours.
Anyhow. One of my favourite sites right now is minted.com. They have amazing and unique wedding invitations that are to die for!
Today, I found this one. And just love it! Seriously, smitten.

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Amazing, right?

Strings

2011-03-23T23:50:00.000-06:00

Two things you may or may not know about me.
One: I can play the bass guitar (though I haven't played in probably three years. Sorry, Sebastian).
Two: I have a deep, deep love for Mark Hoppus. I believe he was my first musician crush.
So, you can probably (though maybe not) imagine my slight (or a little more than slight) excitement when I found this lovely. I'm pretty sure I need this.

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Now they just need to make a pink one. I so love Mark's pink bass.

So She Dances

2011-03-22T21:18:00.001-06:00

When I came home today, I was not feeling great. My socks were wet. I was mad at the snow. I was hungry. Disappointed that the mailman showed me no love today.
So, I immediately took off my gross socks (seriously, one of my biggest pet peeves), put on my favourite sweats and had a piece of carrot cake (leftover from my ward's Relief Society activity on Saturday). That helped to beat the winter-won't-leave-blues. But, the real cure? A dance party in my kitchen. Music so loud I was sure I'd get a complaint from my neighbours.
Really, there are few things better than dancing just because you love the music. Definitely a great mood booster, and a way to shed a few calories too (especially because I have just over six months until you know who is home!).

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Bueller... Bueller...

2011-03-22T16:39:00.000-06:00

I have a deep, deep love for Ferris Bueller, so you can imagine how I felt a little rush of joy when I saw this post this morning. I so need this!

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A boy?

2011-03-19T23:22:00.000-06:00

Remember how I am going to be an auntie come August? Well, yesterday I found out that my sister is having a little boy! In August, I will have a nephew! From the time I found out that Marni was pregnant, I have been expecting it to be a little girl. I had many, many plans which included Audrey Hepburn movie marathons, dressing her up, buying her great baby books like Olivia, and just moulding her in my image. But now that I know that I will have a nephew, I have to change my outlook completely! I am so, so excited! But, it's still something to get used to and wrap my head around. With my nephew I can buy him awesome things like cute hats and little ties. He can tell me crazy stories (because let's face it -- little boys always have the best stories). I am just thrilled to be an auntie in almost four months. A new best friend is coming my way!

I can't wait to dress the little guy up in rad clothes like this. Argyle is of course a must!

Hello, Good Friend

2011-03-17T20:51:00.000-06:00

Do you hear that? That's the sound of sneakers on a gym floor, cheering crowds in stadiums, cheering in homes, heart rates going up second by second.
Friends, it's that wonderful time of year. Hello, March Madness!
I am so, so thrilled that my favourite team (UConn) and a few of my other favourites (Syracuse, BYU, Kentucky) are in the tournament this year, and so far doing well!

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I don't know how I feel about this...

2011-03-14T23:18:00.000-06:00

I know Hollywood loves a good remake, but I'm really not sure how I feel about it. I'm already iffy on the whole remake of "Footloose" (Kevin Bacon IS Ren. No substitute!), so to find out that "My Fair Lady" is supposedly also on the list of upcoming remakes... I don't know where I stand. Yes, Carey Mulligan is adorable and a good actress, but Audrey IS Eliza Doolittle.

What are your thoughts?

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Good Things to Come

2011-03-13T18:53:00.000-06:00

I don't remember if I've shared this video before, but I need to share it today. Every time I see this one, I cry. It's just what I need. I hope it helps someone else today too.

xo

Help!

2011-03-11T21:42:00.003-07:00

I am in need of some ideas for quick, easy, healthy snacks. I don't do well when I go more than a few hours without eating, and sometimes my semi-long days at school or a missed break at work make it hard for me to eat regularly. I also need ideas for snacks in between meals when I'm at home, or when I get my late night sugar cravings.
I need new ideas! So, friends, please. Share some wisdom!

Changing to grow

2011-03-10T20:22:00.001-07:00

Moments of inspiration often come from the least likely places. For example, an episode of "Full House". I was just watching an episode, and something that Vicky (Danny's girlfriend who takes over Becky's spot on "Wake Up, San Francisco!") said just clicked, and helped me figure out some things. She said, "Without change, we can't grow."

I am preparing to make some pretty big changes in my life, and I'm pretty scared. When I think about them in a idealized sense, I am excited, and can't wait. But then I realize that those changes are coming really quickly, and will affect a lot of things. I know that I need to make changes in my life, because I need to grow, and I need to prepare for even bigger things like being a wife and a mother. But, I'm still experiencing a little bit of trepidation about the whole thing. I needed the reminder that changes can be good, and without them I can't progress and become the person that I want to be.

So thank you for the ''aha-moment'', "Full House".

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Apron

2011-03-09T08:38:00.000-07:00

I mentioned that I made a stop at Anthropologie on the weekend. It was merely a gaze, really. But, I did find some lovely, lovely things and can't wait to go back when I actually have some cash in my pockets! One of my favourite items (besides this dress, which I have eyeing for a few weeks now), is this lovely apron. Every time I see it, I am overcome with a desire to curl my hair, put on my red lipstick and whip up a pie for my hubby. I so want to be a 50's mom.

I feel pretty just looking at it. Don't you?

I need to make one for myself, because Candi

reminded me that I can make my own for much, much less!

Spring, are you there? It's me, Kristi.

2011-03-08T23:37:00.001-07:00

I am really itching for spring and summer to be here. The snow is still on the ground (though today's -4 was a step in the right direction!), and I am tired of being cold. I want to see green grass, and blue sky. I want to need hourly applications of SPF 50. I want to be on the university campus, shepherding my little EFY kiddos around. I want to have picnics, and lay out in the sun for hours. I want to wear sunglasses. I want to wear flip flops! I want to be holding my baby niece (or nephew). I just want it to be summer! Or spring, I would accept spring temperatures right now.
Besides all the good things I have to look forward to this summer, I am also craving warm weather so that I can sport some of the new lines from my favourite shops. Like Shabby Apple. Have you seen the new dresses? They are amazing! Seriously. I have been checking out their dresses religiously for over a year now, and have decided to take the plunge and purchase one this year! But there are so many to choose from! Like this one. And this one. And this one. And this one. Oh, and this one too. And I am still super in love with this one.
Which would you choose?

(my current favourite. Love the colour!)

Smiles

2011-03-08T19:43:00.000-07:00

I had a pretty great weekend, and a good start to the week so far. Rather than bore everybody with the long details (or let's face it -- for the sake my fingers), I will just touch on the most important bits that made me smile.

- Spending time at Chinook with the girls before "Battle of the Bands". Dear Anthropologie, I love you.

- Hanging out with my favourite kiddos, watching "Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles", and tickle fights with Jakey and Ty.

- Going to the temple -- it always refreshes me.

- Games night times two.

- Another wonderful e-mail from my favourite missionary.

- Realizing that Justin only has five transfers left!

- Cupcakes (topped with whipped cream and strawberries -- so healthy, right?!)

- Going to the gym! My body is pretty happy with me today.

- Eating a delicious -- seriously delicious -- spinach and chicken salad.

-Watching PVR'd episodes of "Big Bang Theory". Sheldon Cooper, I also love you. Bazinga!

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What made you smile today?

Addicted to Love

2011-03-03T19:10:00.001-07:00

I've said it many, many times, but I really love being in love. I love knowing that someone that I care about is thinking about me, while I am also thinking about him. I love knowing that someone cares about me and knows what I need and is willing to do that for me. After a conversation with a good friend last night about how much the Apostles love their wives (Elder Holland's talks from the last few conferences just make my heart melt when he talks about his wife), and Lauren's post today have reminded me that love is grand. Love is just... no words. I am just so lucky. I'm pretty much addicted to being in love, and I will never give up the habit. I wish that everyone could know what it felt like to be in love, and be loved.

(only seven months until I can finally share some new pictures of me and my guy!)

Cold as Ice

2011-03-01T23:17:00.000-07:00

It is March and I am cold, cold, cold! It shouldn't be this cold now -- or ever, as far as I am concerned. In my mind, winter has its place in December, and that is about it. I can handle the -10 or -15 if I have to, but anything below that is too much -- especially with that awful wind chill. I keep hoping that maybe because heart resides in sunny California, my body will feel that warmth. Not luck yet.
Despite the gross weather, there were some good things that happened today.
a) Snail mail from my favourite missionary
b) Watching "Dr. Horrible" on my way to and from school
c) Reading 2 Nephi 4
And more. Life is good -- but cold.
Sun, please come out tomorrow and bring Spring with you! Please and thank you.

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Memory

2011-02-26T22:45:00.000-07:00

Memory is a funny thing, isn't it? My memory is very strongly linked to my senses -- especially smell. Whenever I smell certain things, I am immediately transported back to a certain moment. This doesn't happen every day, but when it does it is powerful.

For instance, today, I was using some of my favourite lotion from Bath & Body Works, and I was instantly somewhere else. It was August. I was at EFY. It was summer. I was wearing my ugly polo. It was awesome.

That made me think about some of my other favourite scents that take me somewhere else. For instance, when I smell my favourite Victoria's Secret lotion (Pure Seduction), it is February 2008. I am shopping with Justin. It is Valentine's weekend.

And another smell that takes me back is the smell of an older American Eagle lotion that I got as a Christmas present from a friend of mine back in 2007. When I smell that one (because I happened to have a tiny bottle left), it is New Year's Eve. I am in the Marshall's basement in Duffield, getting ready for the dance. My heart is all a-flutter and I have a zillon butterflies in my stomach.

Memory is a funny thing, isn't it?

Spring Look: Save

2011-02-26T17:42:00.001-07:00

I have been searching, and searching for a dress with a slightly lower price point to make an inexpensive spring look, like my splurge earlier this week. But, alas I couldn't. So instead of florals, I went with polka dots. We all know how much I love, love polka dots and really you can never go wrong with polka dots.

Cardigans by Old Navy
Pumps by Forever 21

What do you think? Would you wear it?

Spring Look: Splurge

2011-02-23T08:30:00.001-07:00

When it is cold and snowy and definitely not spring outside, I like to distract myself with some browsing of the spring trends, hoping it will somehow make my heart happy. I came across this dress yesterday, and can't stop thinking about it. Beautiful right? Well, minus the price tag. So, I've created this look here. This is my 'Spring is here, and I have an unlimited budget!' look. If only!

Cocktail Dresses by D&G
Pumps by Christian Louboutin

''Turn and face the strange c-c-changes''

2011-02-22T22:18:00.000-07:00

If someone had asked me five years ago to eat a spinach salad, followed by some green beans, sweet potatoes, and finish it off with a glass of skim milk, I would have turned up my nose in disgust. But, apparently, I like those things now. I made some delicious sweet potato fries last night, and can't wait to have more. A week without spinach is torture for me, and I love fresh green beans. So, when I was using some skim milk for my Mac n' Cheese tonight, I decided to try it again, because I might like the taste. And guess what? I did. I actually liked it. I feel like I don't recognize myself anymore!
Has this happened to anyone else? Have your tastes changed over the years?

5-0-0

2011-02-12T23:26:00.001-07:00

Justin has been a missionary for 500 days. For 500 days my guy has been 'serving his guts out'. For 500 days he has been Elder Marshall. For 500 days our only communication has been letters, e-mails, occasional packages. For 500 days I have had mood swing upon mood swing about how I feel about the whole mission thing. For 500 days I have missed my guy.

500 days ago, I was sure I couldn't survive this long. I was sure that I couldn't live on letters and e-mails. I was sure that my heart would never heal. I was sure that I couldn't love Justin anymore than I did.

It turns out I was completely wrong. I have survived. I have lived on letters and e-mails. My heart has healed (mostly). I do love Justin more than I did when he left.

500 days gone, gone, gone. Only... 230+ to go!

ps. I will catch up on the 30 Day Photo Challenge tomorrow.